Talk about Mixed Feelings
Posted by Anthony Waters on November 7, 2008 at 01:00pm
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(aired on NPR's Weekend Edition Sunday November 9, 2008)

Like so many urban neighborhoods across the United States, the traditionally gay district of The Castro in San Francisco filled the streets to celebrate Barack Obama’s win. But even then, there was undercurrent of disappointment. That feeling intensified this week with news that Proposition 8 had passed. Proposition 8 prohibits marriage between same-sex partners. For Youth Radio’s Mark Anthony Waters, the civil rights implications of both Obama’s win and the gay marriage ban hit close to home.


I was watching the election results on the TV at work. When Barack Obama stepped up to the podium with the American flag behind him, I turned to my colleague and said, “Does this mean Obama is President?”

Before I tell you what happened next, let me back up. While I was in the sixth grade in California’s central valley, I had a racist teacher. I was the only black male in the whole school. She looked at me one day and she’s like, “They’ll elect a black man for President before they elect a white woman. You mark my words.” That always stuck with me. So this year, when a black man and a white woman were both running for president, I was slightly hoping Clinton would win, just to prove that teacher wrong.

But when I heard Obama won, I felt like I was walking on air. I knew at that exact moment that anything was possible. I felt like telling her she was right.

But then, not even 12 hours later, my feeling of sheer bliss was snatched away from me with a phone call from my good friend Ray-Ray. She was near tears.

With anger and disbelief in her voice, she was like, “Anthony, Prop 8 passed. What the hell is wrong with America?” Ray Ray was talking about the statewide ballot initiative that bans same-sex marriage.

“How could people not see this is unfair?” Ray Ray demanded. Her being my home girl, usually I have a good answer for everything. But this time, I was as dumbfounded as she was.

“I don’t know, Ray,” I replied, “Everything happens for a reason. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.”

Ray says, “I’m going to start a riot.”

“Me too, Ray, me too.”

Yes on Prop 8 used all kinds of underhanded tricks to persuade people to believe in their ignorance. Like running an ad trying to convince me that second graders will decide to be gay after learning about gay marriage in school. For the record, I never decided to be gay.

America has come a long way from a time where black people couldn’t vote to having a black president. But I should have known it was too good to be true for both civil rights issues I care about most to change in the same election. One out of two is OK, but in school, 50 percent is still an F.




50 % is still an F

Thanks so much for this commentary, which I heard on KQED the other day. I can't imagine being the only Black kid in a 6th grade class, but I know what it is to feel like the only gay kid in a whole school. The more voices, of all ages and races, that stand up for equality, the more likely it is to happen. Best wishes to you and your voice for justice.

Awesome last line. So true.

Awesome last line. So true. We should judge voting percentages with school grading scales more often.

Thank You

I heard these words on KQED's Perspective. Thank you for speaking out for all of us. I'm out of the country and can't join the protest on Saturday, but I will be doing everything I can as we look for ways to undo this injustice.

Mixed Feelings

Anthony Keep up your good work. By that I mean that you, others, all of us must calmly, nonviolently, push against the notion that the majority can deny rights to a minority. Castro residents and indeed all over this country, we are disappointed to discover what has happend to California - one of the most forward thinking places in the USA. This cannot stand as it is. Civil rights, unfortunately come through persistent protest and through the courts. It is a constant battle against those who for whatever reason, think that somehow giving gay partners rights will dimish the rights of others. It is fundamentally wrong to deny basic rights. Keep that message going. I divide my time between San Francisco and a very conservative state: Virginia. So I hear the argument among conservatives here (and Mormons) that somehow the world will implode if gay marriage is legalized. Fear and diverging from thousands of years of doing things a certain way immobilizes these people. They cannot comtemplate a world where people enjoy the freedoms they take for granted. Basic freedoms - like the joy of marriage. And they have a powerful voice - but so do you. Your's has to be stronger. So don't ever shrug and give up. Frederick Douglass didn't - neither did JFK, Gandhi, Dr. King, or Obama. So don't you give up. Julie Hildbold Teacher at Loudoun Valley High School Virginia.

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